I knew I wanted to blog today…but when I tried typing…I was stuck. I usually don’t get like that. Usually you can’t keep me quiet. I think I am in a bit of a funk. I am sure most of you go through this too and even though I am a medium (somehow it always comes back to this)…I too, get into funks. As much as I connect with another realm, I am still in a human body – which I have to eat right with and work out and brush my teeth. All of these daily duties are reminders that I need to try my best to stay balanced.
The holidays are always difficult and then I had my brother’s birthday and my dads – both which have passed. Emotional days take a lot out of you. I realized that even though this was my 2nd Easter since “everything happened” (that’s how I find myself referring to the day Zachary crossed over) it was really like my 1st. I can’t remember last years Easter. I know we had it and I know the Easter bunny still came….but I was in such a fog, I can’t recall a thing. I know last year Nicholas played baseball….but I can’t recall one of his games. I know I went but I have not a memory. I suppose this will really be my first baseball season since …everything happened. Maybe this year will really be my “firsts” for all of the things I thought I had already encountered.
It amazes me how our mind protects us. I have often heard that the 2nd year is the worst after your child passes. I wonder if it is because the first year you are in such shock??? Or is it that we are really being “protected” by what is labeled shock because we all might actually go crazy???
I do know that all of our loved ones in the hereafter are ok and do not want to see us sad. I know that this is part of our journey and the bigger plan…but for today I am just writing as Mom Necole and I kicked Medium Necole out for a bit…and as ok as I know Zachary is…I want him here being ok… with me, his mom.
What do you do when you get into a funk?
Angel Kisses,
Necole
I knew I wanted to blog today…but when I tried typing…I was stuck. I usually don’t get like that. Usually you can’t keep me quiet. I think I am in a bit of a funk. I am sure most of you go through this too and even though I am a medium (somehow it always comes back to this)…I too, get into funks. As much as I connect with another realm, I am still in a human body – which I have to eat right with and work out and brush my teeth. All of these daily duties are reminders that I need to try my best to stay balanced.
The holidays are always difficult and then I had my brother’s birthday and my dads – both which have passed. Emotional days take a lot out of you. I realized that even though this was my 2nd Easter since “everything happened” (that’s how I find myself referring to the day Zachary crossed over) it was really like my 1st. I can’t remember last years Easter. I know we had it and I know the Easter bunny still came….but I was in such a fog, I can’t recall a thing. I know last year Nicholas played baseball….but I can’t recall one of his games. I know I went but I have not a memory. I suppose this will really be my first baseball season since …everything happened. Maybe this year will really be my “firsts” for all of the things I thought I had already encountered.
It amazes me how our mind protects us. I have often heard that the 2nd year is the worst after your child passes. I wonder if it is because the first year you are in such shock??? Or is it that we are really being “protected” by what is labeled shock because we all might actually go crazy???
I do know that all of our loved ones in the hereafter are ok and do not want to see us sad. I know that this is part of our journey and the bigger plan…but for today I am just writing as Mom Necole and I kicked Medium Necole out for a bit…and as ok as I know Zachary is…I want him here being ok… with me, his mom.
What do you do when you get into a funk?
Angel Kisses,
Necole